My fears about blogging my way out of anonymity have reached an all time high today. I am officially announcing my official blog official Facebook page. Officially. So, without further ado. Please welcome…
“Fortyteen Candles Official Blog”
As long as I can remember, whenever I felt fear I knew it meant “change.” I think there’s even a good greeting card quote for that. But, change is good, right? Well I guess that’s relative. What’s changing? What’s it changing to? While my brain is distracted by trying to find the logic in this swirling stew, there is another part of me which is fearless. This part of me can be very annoying, too. Like when it makes me do something a bit impulsively that I might regret later. This fearless part is what keeps me pushing forward when I am afraid. It is the part that clicks the “submit” button on posts I’m not sure of. It also quickly clicks the “send” button on messages and emails before my internal editor has gone over all the tally sheets. Suddenly, my internal thoughts are in the public domain. Although I know it’s for the best, I can’t help but yell, “Damn you!” and “thank you!” simultaneously. Not as easy, or comprehensible, as you’d imagine.
Whenever I think of this internal editor personified, I think of one of my best friends in high school. She was a Leo, and I totally admired her fearlessness. I remember one day we were at the mall and we decided that if our lives weren’t working out it the way we wanted (i.e. having perfect lives) then perhaps it was because we were doing everything wrong! (Side note: everything wrong in my teenage years was exclusively due to clothing and jewelry choice) Cure? Do everything opposite of what we’d like and then things will magically work out for the better!
My Leo and I went into a popular clothes store for teenage girls, right then and there, and picked out clothes we wouldn’t be caught dead in, and earrings to match. Then we bought these items and started wearing them with reckless abandon. Result? I realized I liked red stripes! And trendy 80’s earrings weren’t so bad when you lived in the 80’s!
Back to my original point. My internal editor, the Leo, has insisted I put up a Facebook page for my blog. I’m not sure why, because WordPress is working out very well for me. I just think this is just another push forward in my effort to be comfortable in my creative shoes, so to speak. Plus, I see there are many other bloggers with Facebook pages, so it seems to be the thing to do.
So, as of this morning, but originally started in May and sidetracked for numerous reasons, is the re-launching of my “Fortyteen Candles Official Blog” page. My goal is to update it as often as I can, but I’m sure Leo will see that it’s done sooner than that.